wow...where does the time go?

Hi friends! Oh how I've missed you!

Things here have been...well, busy. I'm officially in a long term substitute postion for the next 2 months and I couldn't be happier about it.

I'm blessed to have been offered this opportunity at a truly incredible school with an inspiring take on a child centered facility. This school and these people are changing lives every day and I am so lucky to call this place my employment home, as temporary as it may be.

That being said the outlook for the future is bleak. I'm not one to get political on you but the bail out/rescue/whatever you like to call it plan that was recently passed will not help me get a job and it will not help schools increase their staff. Its SO difficult to look at myself from the outside in and not be selfish and wonder, "How am I falling thru the cracks?"

I have 2 college degrees and most recently a teaching certification. I'm outgoing, consistent, reliable and trustworthy. I have a good work ethic and I've never had so much passion to make a difference in the world as I have had the past 6 months or so. Yet the opportunities for me are non-existent right now.

It's a fine line I walk each day, balancing between the feeling that I've never been more blessed and the feeling that I'm terrified that this opportunity will not present the result I'm praying for.

To be in the classroom, to be engaging, encouraging and praising students each day is truly what I am supposed to do. I've never been so sure about anything. I feel so lucky to have had the opportunity to realize this potential and passion within myself. But, there are no jobs! And the available jobs go to teachers with years of experience...I've been told that I may not even get the chance to interview!

So I have to have faith. Faith that there is a plan in place for me and that everything does happen for a reason. I can't imagine being given the gift of the realization of what I want to do with my life and not having the opportunity to use it.

So until I know more I have to take it one day at a time. And I have to cherish each day, each moment that I get to spend in the world of education. In hopes that one day, hopefully sooner than later, it will become more than just temporary.